Alex, A Little Closer. (18)

I’m eighteen years old, I have blue eyes, and I’m always wearing a hat.

My favorite food is salad and people think I’m weird for that. I can’t blame them.

I don’t have a favorite color and I take BuzzFeed Quizzes to get to know myself.

I used to order my coffee black to look more mature, but why do that to myself when adult life sucks enough as it is?

My favorite form of communication is sending memes.

Until I’m comfortable around you, just know that I am internally screaming during every interaction we have.

I love hugs. You wouldn’t think so, because I stand stiff as a board, but I promise you they melt my heart.

I always crave Chick-Fil-A on Sundays. Sometimes I think that’s God telling me I’m fat.

My favorite book is The Help.

I hate needles, coleslaw, and rude customers.

When I was younger, I heard that being a musician automatically makes you ten times hotter. So naturally, I taught myself how to play five instruments.

I like sunrises more than sunsets, though I’m not awake for very many of them.

I’m working on telling people how I feel when I feel it. It’s hard, but I’m trying.

There is literally never going to be a time where I’ll pass up a nap. Ever.

Slow dancing is my favorite.

I realized early on that death is inevitable. I just hope that mine doesn’t hurt, or that I’m at least doing something badass to cause it.

I don’t like the holidays. They are the hardest part of the year.

Dogs are better than cats. That’s not an opinion, that’s a fact.

I like my country music at the volume I can’t hear you complaining about it.

If you write me a letter, I will never throw it away.

Ten years later, and I still cry every time I watch Marley & Me.

I love laughing with friends and taking a second to realize how lucky I am to have them.

I don’t know where I’m going but I’m always in a hurry to get there.

I am always either too much or never enough for people. I want be someone’s “perfect,” in a way that dismisses every other time they’ve felt it.

The Patriots are the superior football team. Again, a fact.

I haven’t worn a dress since I was five.

Something cracks in my chest whenever I see my friends with their siblings. That is a bond and a love that I will never be able to experience again.

I don’t exactly have a “biggest fear.” If I had to pick one, it would be failing to leave the world a better place than when I entered it. I need to learn that maybe it’s not about changing the world, but changing someone else’s world.

I’m gay. I am so, so gay.

I’ve learned more from people I have only encountered once, than from some people I’ve known for years. Everyone has a story to tell if you’re willing to listen.

I wear my heart on my sleeve and I don’t know how to ride a bike.

I try to find humor in everyday life. If you can’t laugh in the mundane, you’ll go crazy.

Oh, and I’ve got dreams. Big ones. I hope that those I love will be there to see them come to fruition.

This is me.

This is growth.

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